Am getting hooked (unedited)

Its like a dream, but its real
Am being swept of my feet and its so surreal
No doubt my mind has taken the backseat
And the thinking done more by the 'tonguing'
Its not a suprise that our relationship is doomed from the start
If she were but a little older and myself a little stronger...
It would have been better
But as it is, it aint gonna last and some one's gonna get hurt
I think I am in love
But its just my emotions talking
I know am heading down the path of heart break
But i remain unfazed unshaken, committed to make the best of what we have
If she can love me for 10 more weeks and decides to love someone else its alright
But it nags me that I may not have a significam=nt input into decions that would help her shape he future.
I think I love her,but its difficult putting everything in perspective
I am supposed to see in her my future bride
She has a few of the things I consider most valuable
but there are others that still require cultivation
I guess in the end we cannot end up together
not because we do not love each other but because we were not meant to be
The foundation has been soiled
So the whole building comes crashing down
She asked me "Are you sure you would be willing to let go?" i said yes
And i told her I loved her...she just gave me a knowing smile and said ... "You think you are in love with me but ur not. I've been down this road before with other guys,and i know that what you see in me is just a fraction of what u desire in ur woman."
I told her,its a lie,its impossible.With her by my side i felt a warm glow in my heart, a glow which time had taken away.
Now she thinks i may be loving her, but i now discover that i dont at least not under the present circumstances.
For me to love her i must be able to see her in the most importune moments when our eyes meet and express my affection for her with any gesture - smile,wink or kiss - without fear of being caught or reprimanded.
I want to love her without condition and restriction
I want to be determined to be there for her.
But everything seems so soon too sudden
And though am the older in years
She seems to be the wiser in age.
I want to look in to her eyes and plant a kiss on her lips
Take her to a park and play around like kids with no care in the world.
I dont know...
Maybe my dreams will come true someday, I do not know
But am willing to take each day as it comes and make the most of the time we have together
Because I think I love her but am not sure.
Lets not jump to conclusions ... the picture is still unfolding
Tommorrow is a better day.
I love you girl and I know its true